This is my journey to heal. Starting today. For the past 2 years, I have been surpressing my feelings – doing things I hate, not appreciated for things I did, people taken advantages and manipulated my weaknesses. I suffered more as each day passed by. Worst thing was, I didn’t realize this. So I was left drowing in depression without help. And people around me were not much of any help either – by either not wanting to understand or just ignoring it cause it’s none of their problem.
Until it took a toll on my physical health. Only later after that, it got me thinking, made me see and realize more things. I need to get out of this and save myself. As much as I hated myself, deep down I know that I worth more than this. I deserve to be treated better. I need to find it again. I need to love myself back.
Maybe what happened to me for the past 6-7 months were just a way for God to help me. I had to go through that hell so I was forced to find my way to be at better place and path.