We’re supposed to use up the budget for the team this quarter. But since we’re all stuck at home, we’ve decided to do a ‘virtual team lunch’ – everyone order their own lunch, do a conference call while eating together, and later claim max of certain amount from our manager.
This is actually my first time eating take out food since MCO was enforced. All of this time, I just cook and eat whatever I have in the kitchen :P So, since it’s claimable, I ordered myself a stuffed crust regular super supreme pizza. Yummy yummy.
Got me thinking, randomly, maybe should just make this as our daily routine and do live – like 먹방 ‘meokbang’ that many people are doing in Korea hahaha.
p/s: If anyone doesn’t know, ‘meokbang’ is a short form of 먹는 방송 ‘meokneun bangsong’ which means ‘eating broadcast’.
Well… sometimes, lol. Working from home is kind of difficult for me to stay focus. Once in a while kena work from home bila we need to run errands or settle something nearby our home tu still OK lah. But bila kena do everyday.. merana jugak lah sikit, haha.
But good thing about my line of industry, as a software engineer is that – working from home ni is something normal and we are already used to it. Kalau ada problem for our company pun, just the load yang they need to handle for remote connections. And about a week before the CMO, our company already had a ‘global work from home’ day, to test the load and find difficulties bila everyone is working remotely.
p/s: Menyampah betol lah my neighbors ni. Bising. Tak habis2 lah menarik kerusi tu kuat2. Tau kan kat bawah ada neighbor, be thoughtful lah sikit!!
I realized I have this when dealing with negative feelings. Like for example, when my manager told all sort of things that could upset me. At that moment, and few days later, I usually will still be OK. I feel OK. But after that, I start to feel sad + miserable + apathetic towards my work.
I think it’s because, at first I keep convincing and telling myself to be optimistic, “come on Najwa, be positive!”, thus I will brush the negative feeling aside.
And I guess it make things worse? The frustration actually keep building up, while I tried hard to ignore it. Hmm.. plus, nowadays, I have no one to talk to, which makes it worse I guess.
When my grandmother was alive, when I feel upset, I would always immediately talk to her. She would listen, entertain and made me feel a little bit better. It kind of helped to be honest. Sigh…
I’ve been panicking each time I receive a parcel. Tried many custom personal “SOP” but none ever works. I always get more panic and ended up thinking – “Shit, idk.. I think there’s a chance I might already got infected, I’m doomed. Oh God. But… Let’s wait for 14 days, I still hope I’m ok..”
So just now, I found this step. Pretty basic. But I’m still nervous though. Only people with anxiety disorder would understand.. sobs..
Ask for contact-free deliveries to minimise the risk of transmission from delivery drivers
Dispose of packaging immediately
Follow hand washing advice and thoroughly clean your hands after handling parcels
Regularly clean surfaces with anti-bacterial spray
I had to pick up a package that was being placed inside PosLaju’s EzyBox (cause apparently they don’t want to do home delivery if they don’t feel like it urgh). Here’s what I did;
I bring 2 bags
1 paper bag to store the parcel I place this bag inside my car, to leave it for few days. If there’s any virus there, it should die without a host.
1 reusable bag to put my belongings So I can place all items I brought out – keys, handphone, sanitizers, small wallet. And have them cleaned when I reached home.
As soon as I reached home;
Wash my hand.
Close front door.
Open door to laundry place.
Wash clothes I wore to go out.
Wash my hand.
Shower.
Clean/disinfect the items from the reusable bag.
Was the reusable bag.
Wash my hand.
At least when I did those, I panic less. Since I don’t place things all over the place, it took me less time to clean/disinfect the things. Yay me!!
OK, these few days, my panic attacked more often. One of reason is – too many bad, sad, annoying news regarding the virus and new government. Then there’s also my paranoias towards any foreign item I have to bring inside the house – parcel, letters, groceries.
So.. this will be my avenue to let go all of those frustrations, anger, worries… or anything that’s bothering my mind.
